re: stacks

To tell you a story:

I was looking forward to possibly being in the school musical so much,I more than anything else this year. I picked up the audition music and practiced it at home until it was perfected, and I'll be honest, I think I did a pretty good job. I even hit the high notes I was afraid of.

But then, the day before my audition, I came down with laryngitis. 

My voice was raspy and weak and my range was totally gone. I could barely talk, let alone sing. I rested my voice and tried all kinds of teas and odd things and still tried to power through the audition, but my voice was still so weak and went silent on the high notes. I mentioned beforehand that I was recovering from laryngitis, but when I sang, I still saw the director make a face. And that really really hurt.

I hoped like mad that I'd get a callback simply as a second chance in hopes that I'd be recovered by then. 

But even though I nailed the song at home, since I was sick and couldn't sing with a strong voice, I didn't. And all my friends did. 

I was so angry at the way the whole thing played out, how the one day I got laryngitis of all things was during my audition. I went home and couldn't stop crying for an hour and a half. 

And sometimes, only Bon Iver and taking pictures can make me feel better.

Today's playlist: re: Stacks by Bon Iver. On replay.